Enough! I can’t do this anymore… I can’t keep killing myself in order to keep your dreams alive. I chose a life with you because I loved you and I wanted to be with you. My only dream was to live a happy life with you – but your goals are different. Your dreams and ambitions are more important than me… than us. I don’t think you’ve ever really seen who I really am or respected my feelings and my love for you. You’ve never had time for me… all you was do is run an endless race to be rich and famous, forgetting everything else in your life. I never wanted a luxurious life… a big house or a big bank balance… it’s your dreams that center around money. You’ve never been there when I needed you… Every dark lonely night I have been alone, crying and consoling myself… You were never had time to stop and hold me – you were too busy running a race to prove yourself… I don’t know who to? I had long since given up all my dreams so that you could pursue your own… I wished only to be by your side in every walk of life… but all you ever did was make me a show piece in your home…. But I am a human being who has feelings and thoughts of my own – but it seems you forgot about me… You see me as merely a piece of flesh with no depth of feeling….but you are wrong. I have a heart and it aches with pain. You use people as mere stepping stones along your path to success and never hear their cries as you walk all over them… I used to cry out in pain – but not anymore. I can’t close my eyes to it anymore… I can’t kill my consciousness. I no longer wish to be known as an attachment to your name – I want an identity for myself. I want a life of my own… not just a house but a home, with life and laughter inside… I want to listen to my heart and hear the thoughts I have kept silent all these years… I WANT TO LIVE AND BREATHE FOR MYSELF….!! Neena Gupta.